The Disappearing Act

The pleasantry has subsided.

The optimism overcome with cynicism.

The fire extinguished, as the magic has weakened.

Its vibrancy has faded into darkness; its ink covered by white-out.

Its lively spirit crushed, as its flirty seduction is overshadowed by grimness.

The twinkle is now a dud.

The curve has flattened.

What once shined effortlessly is now resentfully forced.

What was once there has now vanished…

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My Smile.

**poetry corner**

Hope you enjoyed reading. As always, thank you for stopping by and showing love and support. Feel free to comment anytime (love what I write, hate it, can relate to it, suggestions, feedback, etc…. it’s all good) 😉

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Just Listening to Music

The beautiful lyrics are as follows:

When You Were Young
The Killers

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save your from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now, here he comes

He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentlemen
Like you imagined when you were young

Can we climb this mountain
I don’t know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let’s take it easy
Easy now, watch it go

We’re burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane that started turning
When you were young
When you were young

And sometimes you close your eyes
And see the place where you Used to live
When you were young

They say the devil’s water – it ain’t so sweet
You don’t have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now, here he comes

He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentlemen
Like you imagined when you were young
When you were young

I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But more than you’ll ever know

This is seriously one of my favorite songs! I’ve probably jammed to it a million times! BUT, I really listened to the lyrics tonight…. </3 Enjoy!

The Proof Is In The Pudding!

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Foto found on yanksing.com….

If you want to know who your true supporters are, take a look at who is there when you are at your absolute worst.  Everyone has their issues and life goes up and down sometimes. Those who truly care for you won’t turn their backs on you when you are in need or when the going gets tough; they’ll ride shotgun and help you through.  Keep your eyes open and stay aware of your surroundings.  For those people who do show you that they care, make sure you show your appreciation, as real people are hard to come by. Talk is cheap! The proof is is the pudding.

The Silver Lining

I woke up this morning extremely angry. Without getting into too much detail, a close friend acted in such a way that had left me feeling unappreciated and disvalued. Those two emotions were intense for me. What I was actually feeling was HURT by it, but it was displayed as ANGER. #TeamAries, SMH; them damn Aries.

Anyway, as one could imagine, I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and chose to start my day, another day the Good Lord has allowed me to see, terribly wrong. It’s amazing how we allow others to occupy our mental spaces. I chose to fill my mental space with negativity; I internalized my friend’s actions and viewed myself negatively.

I started doubting myself and told myself that I did something wrong. I told myself I was getting what I deserved, because, I mean, why else would my friend treat me that way? Then I started questioning whether or not I brought value to anyone’s life. Sounds dramatic, right? But, keep in mind that I’m just sharing my thoughts. Those were just thoughts that I’m not afraid to admit having; we all have thoughts.

Before you judge and start formulating your feedback, remember that in spite of my profession as a behavioral health therapist, I am only human, far from perfect, and totally not above experiencing emotional pain. I checked my BS quickly, however, turned it around, and went on about my day. I had to snap out of it I guess. So, the morning progressed, I put my jams on; I was good. WOOSAH!

Now, getting to the point of this blog post…I received an email from a former client I worked with about two years ago. In all honesty, I barely remembered her as I see a lot of people where I work. But, she definitely remembered me and wanted to share her wonderful story with me. Please allow me to paraphrase some of what she wrote.

She pleasantly and casually addressed the letter to me and indicated she wanted to thank me. My eyes filled with tears as I read on. She goes on to say that though she was mandated to attend the program I work for, the group therapy sessions she attended with me helped her to change her outlook on life. She mentioned that while participating in the program she was in a long term and long distant relationship with a guy who was living outside of the country, who she was planning to marry. Also at that time she was working as a room attendant at a large hotel chain just to pay for her therapy and court fines, all while attending classes at the community college.

The good news she wanted to share is that she’s currently a junior at a four year university, got a promotion at her current job to an assistant manager, and is now married to a man she met online! She described her husband as “right” for her and she’s happy. At the end of her letter she reflected on an exercise I provided to the group in which I asked them to complete a Vision Board (from the Oprah website). I provided all of the materials. The last paragraph of her letter is as follows: “I did an exercise in your class which I think was called a vision board. I cut out pictures of the magazines, and wrote on the back of the pictures what I wanted, and provided details as to how long I wanted to accomplish these goals, and what I wanted for myself. This made me re-evaluate what I wanted in a true relationship for my life, as well as career, and spiritual life. These cut outs were placed on my door to my room, and Although a portion of them have been completed, I am now working on a vision board with my husband, and I wanted to share this brief story with you. I am thankful for the way in which you provided the experience.”

WOW! I was incredibly touched and happy for her successes. I thought to myself that her letter couldn’t have come at a better time. It reinforced that I do have value to others and though it’s not always revealed to me, people do appreciate me. It’s obviously a bit self-defeating to put myself down and discredit my worth, but hey, it happens sometimes. Her letter really helped to lift my spirits. Looks like things went full circle, huh? Today I was reminded of how grateful I am for the career I’ve chosen, and honestly how proud I am of myself and my accomplishments. As the saying goes, we are our own worst critic.

May we all continue to be blessed! Note: this post was written on 10/14/14, but posted today. As always, thank you for reading.

Sometimes when it rains, it pours, but when it clears, you really appreciate the sweet sunshine. 🙂

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Foto found online……..

Bah

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(Found this foto online………………)

I swear Love is like the juice of a lemon squeezed on a fresh flesh wound.

Ever feel like you hate everybody? Lol.

The Disconnect

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“I love you”.
Three powerful words that are often times placed on a pedestal.
Three magical words that can potentially come with a high price.
Three little words with a rather big meaning.
Three special words that, frankly, are overrated.

As I mature those most sought after and most misused words are starting to depreciate in value. I’ve been subjected to to those words numerous times by a variety of people of differing relationship levels, but only a small fraction of people truly meant its “true” meaning, I suppose??? I mean, what is love really? Hmm, don’t ask my emotionless heart, disengaged from love.

#coldasice #emotionless #whatisloveanyway #iloveyou #iloveyounot #disconnected

Random thoughts communicated here, can anyone else relate? Have you ever felt emotionally disconnected from others?

DP:TurnedUpNoses

I Have The Best Boyfriend Ever

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Hear ye, Hear ye ladies and gentlemen, please stand corrected for it is I who has the best boyfriend ever. Nope, he sure does not do nearly anything I want him to do and he could not be described as romantic. LOL! But, with that said, he’s the man. Smart. Hardworking. Confident. Independent. Oh yea, and let’s not forget that he’s such a cutie! (Cheesy woman language) When we argue, not only does he admit his faults, but he’ll respectfully call me out.  He’s proven to have my best interest at heart; he’s proven to be a great friend. And can u believe that the fool will tell me, “No”?

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Pfffffff……….,yet he strives to bring me smiles.  🙂 He isn’t controlling and won’t be controlled. We are both #TeamAries, so you know we won’t have anyone telling us what or what not to do.

Anyway, overall, he positively contributes to my life and our relationship is far from BASIC. He’s an interesting dude with some freakin’ substance…STEP ASIDE oh shallow, single-minded ones!!! It’s been a pretty good time. Regardless of the future, I’ve gained a great deal from this experience, learned a lot, and grew as a person. For that I am thankful and consider these moments a blessing. Hands down, I have the best boyfriend ever!

Ask yourself when was the last time you gave your sweetie a shout out or showed them some appreciation? Have a good day Love Birds!

#BestBoyfriendEver 
#HatersGonHate 
#YouMadBro  #GivingRespectWhereRespectIsDue 
#AllSmiles 
#ShowingLove

Not a JLo fan, but this song is fitting. I’m sure someone out there likes it.

Thanks for stopping by….. 😉

DP:FreeWrite

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