Frustration is a general symptom of the “Things just aren’t going my way” Syndrome.  Likewise, it is a common symptom of the “Everyone around me  f***ing sucks and I keep hoping that they’ll stop f***ing sucking, but they never f***ing do” Syndrome.

I am typically optimistic and hopeful, but today the frustrations are running ever so high and I’m honestly baffled by the things that keep happening. I have been sitting back and watching out for people’s words to finally match their behavior(s) and after so many consecutive fails, my hopefulness decreases after each instance. Damn, is it going to get better? Sh*t! Or will my hopefulness decrease until there’s nothing left?

Ever feel like you wanna gouge your own eyeballs out and disconnect? Don’t tell me I’m the only one. :-\ I’m asking for the good Lord to give me strenf aka strength!

#happywednesday hope you enjoyed the read. Feel free to like and/or comment. LoL. This post was triggered by me running across the attached meme and actually having a really stressful day. But, know that I’m a boss, am grabbing the day by its balls, and making it do what it do. Don’t let anything/anyone bring you down my loves! *Muahz*

That instrumental doe….. “Frustration” lol.


The Disconnect


“I love you”.
Three powerful words that are often times placed on a pedestal.
Three magical words that can potentially come with a high price.
Three little words with a rather big meaning.
Three special words that, frankly, are overrated.

As I mature those most sought after and most misused words are starting to depreciate in value. I’ve been subjected to to those words numerous times by a variety of people of differing relationship levels, but only a small fraction of people truly meant its “true” meaning, I suppose??? I mean, what is love really? Hmm, don’t ask my emotionless heart, disengaged from love.

#coldasice #emotionless #whatisloveanyway #iloveyou #iloveyounot #disconnected

Random thoughts communicated here, can anyone else relate? Have you ever felt emotionally disconnected from others?


At A Loss For Words….

I look into your eyes prepared to utter my truths, but the tight lump in my throat obstructs the words.  

I take a deep breath while my thoughts fumble and jumble and eventually convince me to refrain.  

But, wait, I’m determined to express how I feel!!!  Oh, who am I kidding?  My cognitions are so commanding.  

They manage to silence my feelings by way of intimidation.  Somehow, all that I wanted to say sounds like, “Yea, I’m ok”, followed by a faux smile.    


“Your genetics load the gun. Your lifestyle pulls the trigger.”, Mehmet Oz

I presented this quote to my clients in group therapy session the other day, and it really got their attention. It lead to a great discussion. Both how it is metaphorically written and it’s powerful message is captivating. Personally, I have been working on revamping my lifestyle in efforts to get closer to my individual goals. It has not been easy; by no means is this a stress-free mission. However, once I got the ball a-rolling and started bringing attention to the gang of pink elephants in the room, my motivation towards positive change increased.

I know I am not the only person who has tried blaming their family for their limitations/shortcomings. Not to discredit the major impact of one’s environment on development, but regardless of one’s upbringing, change is possible. This quote reinforces just that. It is through change that things happen and can propel you onward. How inspiring! So quit making excuses and stop playing the blame game.

I am curious as to how many people can relate. How many of you have defied the odds and spearheaded change within a maladaptive family system? Considering my family history and the non-traditional things I was exposed to as a child, who would have thought I would be the beautiful, educated, and successful woman I am today? I am truly blessed! Feel free to share…

So You Wanna Play With Magic?

Your mind’s logical attempt to inhibit you, “Remember, you weren’t looking for this.” “This is not a part of the plan.” You want to listen, but your emotions seem to have won this round. Imagine your Reasonable Mind (where you think logically and your behaviors are planned and calculated) in a steel cage match ring with your Emotion Mind (where your thoughts and behaviors are controlled mostly by your emotions). The two states of mind go at it; and just when you think your logic will prevail, your Emotion Mind Big Show Choke Slams your Reasonable Mind, pinning it down for 1, 2, 3—–DING! Your heart flutters as your Emotion Mind walks away with the championship belt. That victory has now left you in a place you have both feared and avoided for several years…A little place known as VULNERABLE!

We are taught that vulnerability is a sign of weakness. I agree that vulnerability is rather frightening, especially if you have ever had your feelings hurt, and I mean hurt for real. However, we have all experienced vulnerability, even the toughest of the tough. I like to view vulnerability as a vehicle which drives us toward strength, courage, enhanced abilities, and increased emotional stability. When feeling uncomfortably vulnerable, ask yourself, what is it about your situation that has made you feel this way? Engage in self-exploration and self-reflection and dissect the situation. Hopefully you will uncover the deeper issue and be able to work through it and progress, versus, run away from it and repeat undesired thought and behavior patterns.

I say, why not safely let your guards down, and within healthy boundaries decide to take a risk, and play with a little magic? Come on, I dare you to open yourself up to new opportunities.

~Hope you enjoy the jam! 😉

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